Blocked by the tree's pose,
All I can see is her hand and her nose,
She holds a tissue n her nose's red,
Wet eyes, thoughts running through her head,
And I know, she's been crying,
Who'll make it quicker down her cheek, tears vying.
I rummage through memories,
If someone would pay me a dime, a piece,
I'd share all my past pain,
All through which, I tried to remain sane,
But, then time passed by and I smiled again,
Why worry about the past, in vain?
I go back to wondering, what hurt her, or who?
Was it an old worry, or was it new?
I'm guessing some one's been, to her, untrue...
I've had instances such, many a few...
How would one know who's worth the pain,
But if you don't try and trust again,
If you don't wipe your tears and move on,
If you only pine for people, gone,
You wont get your love's due,
No one can change your fate, but you.
Move on, be strong, make a choice,
Love again, regain your poise,
And there will someone who's worth it all,
Your prince charming, handsome and tall,
One who'd die to see you smile,
And one who'd make your life worthwhile...!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Then..... and now.....
Those were the days…
When if I needed to call someone, I could blindly dial that number. And if it was unreachable, I knew just about who the next 10 people I could call were…
When waking up at 8 was a pain, and picking what to wear for the day was another… But dressing up was fun and enjoyable, more so because I knew there would be people to tell me how great I looked or how I can borrow their accessories to look even better…
When the only time I got to know what was on the menu for the day was when I opened my lunch box…
When the minute a movie released, we knew we had to watch it… the only confusions were which theatre, which classes to bunk and whether the number of tickets to be booked were 10 or 12…
When friends’ parents would ask us to stay over for lunch or dinner, but we would escape just because we wanted to eat pani puri at the local market…
When the only foreign country we really knew was the US of A, because that was every budding engineer’s dream workplace…
When, if you had a problem, you could share it with all your friends and they would offer their shoulders for you to rest your head on and their dupattas to wipe your tears.
And then times changed…
Now the only reason I mail people is to wish them on their birthdays… And that too with a selfish motive- so that I would not have to take out the time out of my already long day to make a call and wish them personally…
Now I am more aware of whats happening in half a dozen other countries because I care enough to watch the news - God knows which country has been attacked today by a bunch of insane blood hungry scoundrels…
Now I need to plan what to cook for the next one week, in advance, because the weekend’s the only time I get to pay attention to grocery shopping or half cook the next week’s sabjis…
Now I don’t care what I wear daily, because every weekday I work sitting in the secluded area of my bedroom and every weekend I stay home relaxing from the tiring week I’ve had.
Now dreams of half a dozen onsite opportunities at work have been fulfilled, but I’ve grown to hate Australia because it took my best friend away, America because my loved ones stay there and are too far away to been seen regularly and the city I live in, because I have no social circle here…
Now when I think of eating out, I’m scared what diseases can be spread that way and I choose to eat at home, not because I want to, but because I’m scared how many days of leave I might have to apply in case I fall sick after eating out.
Now when I want to talk to someone, I have a million contacts in my phonebook, but no real friend…
When if I needed to call someone, I could blindly dial that number. And if it was unreachable, I knew just about who the next 10 people I could call were…
When waking up at 8 was a pain, and picking what to wear for the day was another… But dressing up was fun and enjoyable, more so because I knew there would be people to tell me how great I looked or how I can borrow their accessories to look even better…
When the only time I got to know what was on the menu for the day was when I opened my lunch box…
When the minute a movie released, we knew we had to watch it… the only confusions were which theatre, which classes to bunk and whether the number of tickets to be booked were 10 or 12…
When friends’ parents would ask us to stay over for lunch or dinner, but we would escape just because we wanted to eat pani puri at the local market…
When the only foreign country we really knew was the US of A, because that was every budding engineer’s dream workplace…
When, if you had a problem, you could share it with all your friends and they would offer their shoulders for you to rest your head on and their dupattas to wipe your tears.
And then times changed…
Now the only reason I mail people is to wish them on their birthdays… And that too with a selfish motive- so that I would not have to take out the time out of my already long day to make a call and wish them personally…
Now I am more aware of whats happening in half a dozen other countries because I care enough to watch the news - God knows which country has been attacked today by a bunch of insane blood hungry scoundrels…
Now I need to plan what to cook for the next one week, in advance, because the weekend’s the only time I get to pay attention to grocery shopping or half cook the next week’s sabjis…
Now I don’t care what I wear daily, because every weekday I work sitting in the secluded area of my bedroom and every weekend I stay home relaxing from the tiring week I’ve had.
Now dreams of half a dozen onsite opportunities at work have been fulfilled, but I’ve grown to hate Australia because it took my best friend away, America because my loved ones stay there and are too far away to been seen regularly and the city I live in, because I have no social circle here…
Now when I think of eating out, I’m scared what diseases can be spread that way and I choose to eat at home, not because I want to, but because I’m scared how many days of leave I might have to apply in case I fall sick after eating out.
Now when I want to talk to someone, I have a million contacts in my phonebook, but no real friend…
What happened in the past year and a half!
- Guru and I brought our love for each other out in the open and got engaged on the 12th of July 2008.
- July/August 2008 - I quit Wipro and joined QL. Greatest step up at work, that I imagined I would ever get. Moved to Pune and started living by myself.
- December 19th 2008 - Akku gave us the most beautiful gift of all! A niece... The prettiest baby in the universe!
- December 20th 2008 - I lost the bestestest friend in the entire universe, the only true best friend I've ever had!
- January 2009 - I went back to Aliso for a couple of months. Got promoted at work.
- March 2009 - Visited Akku Sandy and Sashu at San Jose.
- June 2009 - Guru finally returned from Belgium just in time for the wedding. He met his pretty little niece for the first time.
- June 18th 2009 - We had a beautiful wedding ceremony. I missed the world's greatest best friend being by my side, but vowed to make my hubby my love, my best friend and my confidant for the rest of my life!
- June 2009 - Guru and I made a trip to Mauritius for our honeymoon. We decided to grade all our future holidays against the honeymoon one. Seems like the Mauritius holiday would be hard to beat!
- July 2009 - We moved to Chennai and set up a home here. I, who hated Chennai hard enough to not move here even if I was offered a million dollars, got dragged in here by the strings of love. And I don't find it all that bad anymore!
- August 2009 - I started enjoying "Working from home". I sincerely believe my productivity increased. No clue if upper management thinks so...
- September 2009 - The Balakrishnan family became complete, finally!
It's funny how marriage affects your communication skills. It changes the beginning of most of your sentences from "I" to "We"...
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